who said i have to educate myself, make lots of money, and have a family? who said i cant go live in a tiki hut in the jungle, become a predator, and survive pragmatically? they’re both a challenge but id rather take the path that leads me to simple blissfulness and not the one that leaves me in agonizing pain.

i want to have and be all these things. rejected.

i wish you could read my mind. so therefore i wouldn’t have to move my mouth. i wouldn’t have to waste my breath on such far fetched statements and sentences.  i wish that i met you in another life. theres still a chance of that, but this life is taking a long time to pass. i try to be patient and calm. at times its hard but i know my place. i want to believe that you think of me as phenomenal and breathtaking but i will never know for sure. i wish i could discover you inside and out, bones and all. you remind me of home and im so enticed. its so funny the predicaments i fall into. i really dont mean to but they always stumble across my path and as curious as i am, i become tangled and twisted. this time i haven’t drowned or anything. but yeah i may have dipped and dived off the deeper end but im back afloat. waiting for your signal off shore to show me the way back in. this will never exist.